Thought I might try to do a little better leaving thoughts here this year. I’ve said that a lot though and absolutely not followed through. Today’s (mis)adventure seems a perfect fit.
This domain is old, over 20 years actually. I will keep it until a die and then some. It is MINE!!!! May it live long after me.
I remember when I bought it in the late 90’s. Dated a guy that was all into computers when the internet was new. In one of those weird ways the universe has of smacking you in the head being reminded of him is what reminded me to write.
Minding my own business today and checking how much spammy crap is in my old AOL mailbox (never getting rid of that either..lol) and I see this email address and do a double-take on it like WTF???? Did I read what I think I read???? Email is along the lines of “name for you to see here” @ whatever.
My brain is doing calisthenics, eyes just staring at my laptop like it may explode at any minute. Title of the email is “Just want to say hey.”. Seeeeeee, that guy’s (mentioned above) email was a play on “name for you to see here” as well, but credit where credit is due, formatted in a much more clever way.
Guess I should leave a note to explain if anyone reads this thing but me… He and I did not end well. If I ever do refer to him for whatever weird reason he’s the guy in my illustrious dating history known as The Mistake.
Can’t be. I’m soooo opening this. Click!
Haha, it’s some guy from an online design group I’m in asking if I want to meet for a drink. That’s going to be a nope, nope and a fuck nope. LOL! In the words of The Highlander, “There can be only one!”. Been there, done that. Nice guy, handsome… FU and your email address Satan!
Poor guy, shot down in flames over an email address. Yeah I’m not brave enough to tempt fate like that. Get the holy water!
Fluffy, wherever life has taken you, I don’t wish you true ill but I’m smart and creative so that leaves a wide open field of wishes.
Hello stranger. I can still remember exactly how you sound when you say that. How lucky am I to have had the romance of a lifetime? Seriously the shit you read about in books. Thank you for that.
White button downs that smelled like you. Midnight in the hay loft. Running to your car in the pouring rain. Driving to fast down dark roads. All those hours spent wrapped in each other and there was nothing else in the world. That sly half grin. You were everything,
I drive by the barn sometimes but you took the magic with you.
When you’re 47 and single people assume you’re bitter and you don’t believe in love. Can’t every happen because there will always be you.
My Mom finally asked me once years later why I didn’t marry you, Because I loved you.
So distracted, things that should take 5 minutes are taking an hour. That’s what letters never meant to be sent are for. My heart already knew but I was hoping. Hoping what exactly I don’t know. You care about someone you should wish them happiness and I do but….. just wish you had picked me for a little while. That’s insane right? When I woke up Sunday it was the first thing I saw, and I just flipped. That hollow nauseous feeling. Couldn’t deal so I clicked that unfriend button. Self-preservation at its finest.
I know it’s not rational, I know I don’t not want to be friends with you. But I know I also just severed the last tie. Snip. You’ll probably never know how much it took to do that, you’ll probably think I’m being a bitch or an asshole of some sort. Asshole? Maybe. I am sorry, but I just don’t want to see it, can’t. It will drive me batshit. Can’t change the way I’m wired. It’s driving me nuts anyway as this letter can attest to. Truth is it could be worse.
Guess I knew this would come eventually. I’m not exactly stupid and I’ve always handled things with reason before. Guess it’s to close to the last trap. Every time I work it out in my head that nope it’s not going to happen and was good letting it go, there you were. And that hope would spark. I’d considering doing the smart thing for about 5 seconds and then away I’d go. Piper is getting paid.
That’s the part that pisses me off because I shouldn’t have to pay and the price I gambled was too high.
Cancer, in 2018 love is definitely in the air! If you walk into the New Year single, you can smile wide and remain confident that the universe plans on offering you incredible opportunities to meet someone with the power to really open your heart and bring you to your knees. It all began on October 10, 2017, when Jupiter, the planet of expansion and blessings, moved into your true love sector for the first time in over 12 years. This cycle is no minor event, and Jupiter will remain here through November 8, 2018. As a result, delicious possibilities lie ahead for you in matters of the heart.
You are certainly craving more depth in your love life this year, and a casual affair simply will not do. So when you meet someone who has an air of mystery and gives off that magnetic vibe screaming “There is so much more underneath the surface,” you’ll find yourself hooked. You could meet this person at any time between now and early November, but pay close attention to a first meeting with someone near May 25 or August 19 when Jupiter makes a perfect link to Neptune. The universe might very well send you a soul mate during these times. An ex might also come back into your life from October 5-31 while Venus is retrograde, and if so, you might find yourself hopelessly drawn in.
If you’re already in a relationship, there is no shortage of support for you and your mate. On January 15, April 14, and again on September 12, Jupiter will make a perfect link to Pluto, the planet of transformation, now in your partnership sector. You and your spouse or partner might focus your attention on your children and empowering them to become the best adults they’re capable of. If you have children together, you’ll be in harmonious agreement about all childrearing matters, making it easier for you to feel romantic with your love behind closed doors. If you’re considering having a baby, this might be your year. Fertility will be strong!
At the same time however, Saturn, the planet of structure and responsibility, will also move through your 7th House of Partnership. If you and your mate are committed, you’ll work through any rough patch together. If, however, you feel as if your relationship has become nothing but a burden, you’ll have to start getting real about how much you have left to give.